We cannot take away the right to offend anyone without taking away freedom of thought.
Furthermore, giving away freedom for a right is like buying your own mouth whilest selling your tongue. No other person, group, or document, or rights determine my freedom. “I exist. And that’s it.”
Also, group identity being paramount over individual identity is the authoritarian ideological method that drove great human suffering and tragedy such as countless people murdered in Maoist China.
“Spoken truth is the countervailing force to tyranny.” We face the battle of hell and heaven within the confines of our minds everyday. By being fully honest with ourselves and speaking our truth we face the risk of offending, we face the risk of losing a job, we face the risk of losing friends; but the alternative of not being truthful is always far worse, it can cause us to lose our selfs and can place our mind in that confine of hell and there many get lost and can no longer see themselves, and because they can’t see themselves any longer they can not find their way out of this hell.
And no matter what point you are at, things can always be worse. So in this take refuge and gratefulness. Everyone is a victim. Life is suffering. What will you do in the face of suffering?
Express yourself. If you feel something, speak up n say that shit. We all take our backlash for expressing our feelings and opinions, but let’s not let our fear hold us back from showing who we are. We are not robots locked into black n white choices devoid of emotion. Accepting others’ feelings in understanding despite difference from your own is a courageous beauty. And allowing oneself to be vulnerable with others is an honesty that’s so fuckin hot 💞
Last night I died in my nightmare…(funny enough listening to “Everyone Dies In Their Nightmares” by XXXTENTACION)
I woke up this morning angry, confused, and afraid in a far more overwhelming way than any dream death I’ve experience before. As a frozen flame, one of my morning prayers was this:
“Can the Lord shed this great fear of mine – Have I ruined myself with drugs completely forever? I can’t even feel if I’m experiencing a spiritual death or not…”
These thoughts actually stemmed from not the dream, but an unshaking feeling I had the night before I went to sleep.
This evening my prayer was answered when I was trying to raise money for the Human Rights Campaign. A pastor stopped me and said, “I will give you something better than a pledge for your charity.” And then he proceeded to pray for me answering my exact prayer from this morning without me even telling him and letting me know that I could not have been further from the truth, he said that my faith in Jesus Christ will conquer any spiritual deaths I was facing and that it was not in God’s plan for me to fall this way.
The clarity blinded me so I went to the bathroom to cry.
I leave you with one of my favourite quotes and a heartfelt sentiment,
“This is what the Lord says:
“Let not the wise boast of their wisdom
or the strong boast of their strength
or the rich boast of their riches,
but let the one who boasts boast about this:
that they have the understanding to know me,
that I am the Lord, who exercises kindness,
justice and righteousness on earth,
for in these I delight,”
declares the Lord. – Jeremiah 9:23-24
Thus, Live Long & Prosper, dear Children of the Dead…
I still do not understand this miracle that was today, this is why in Ayla Nereo fashion I show myself to you to know myself…